Do I deserve this?

I deserve this

I haven’t posted for a while because I’ve been telling myself to wait until my books are uploaded as ebooks and print on demand books so you know who the hell I am and what the hell I am on about! ┬áBUT this morning I had a realisation.

I don’t have to wait! I don’t have to have my shit together in a package to connect with you. I don’t have to be published to inspire you. I don’t have to be famous to reach you.

You are out there already and just like me you are on your journey – we are all on our own journeys. It would be a shame not to talk to each other when our paths cross, “No sorry I have to accomplish this before I can stop and chat!” Fuk that! Yeah I’ve decided I’m really just going to be me too! And yeah I do swear a bit for emphasis!

My message today is actually a confession – until now I haven’t believed I am worthy to be completely looked after, the physical, emotional, spiritual and mental bit I had worked out but the financial bit I struggled with!

Back story – I have been married for 15 years and I have supported my husband and two sons during that time UNTIL the last month – well it’s probably been more like 9 months in reality, but it only really sank in, in the last month.

I don’t have to work. I have NEVER had that security from my husband before because get this – I didn’t think I deserved it!

Well I do deserve it! And I am grateful for it!

I watched my husband go off to a job he LOVES this morning and he was SHINING! He is doing something he wants to do, yes it has taken him a long time to get to this point in his life, but he made it and I supported to him to make it. I encouraged him to go back to Uni again and study what he loved, I supported him financially, emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically! I have been a bloody good wife and in the meantime a bloody good mum!

Now it is my turn to do what I love with his complete support – he said and I quote – “My lovely, you don’t need to casual teach anymore – just work on your books – I believe in you!”

I believe in myself too, which is damn handy since that’s what I’m here to teach kids to do!

Thanks for listening! What do you deserve?

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